“If one is estranged from oneself, then one is estranged from others too. If one is out of touch with oneself, then one cannot touch others.”—Its true, you cannot feel your true feelings if your not feeling yourself, and so on…
Caught in the eye of a hurricane Slowly waving goodbye like a pageant parade So sick of this town pulling me down My mother says I should come back home but Can’t find the way cause the way is gone So if I pray am I just sending words into outer space
Have you ever been so lost? Known the way and still so lost, Another night waiting for someone to take me home Have you ever been so lost?
We mean good, but it turns out bad. We still help the people that take the help for granted, we try but it’s never good enough. We say things out of protection but it comes off as coldness.
It has been mentally tiring the last two weeks, having this day off feels comfy but not comfy enough. I wish i could be less kind again and start being more selfish, i wish i could stop caring for the hurt that people caused by themselves, i wish i could be more independant again instead of trying to bring out the good in people, but like my mom i’m a people pleaser, so i havent got time to think, or realize how much i miss you my friend.
Materialistic things don’t bring fulfillness in life, however they can make you happy and distracted.
Today, on this date, i woke up in need of hearing a sad song, i listened to Angela Aki’s “Kiss me Goodbye" the lyrics somehow seem to fit my mood and thoughts. Around twelve i got the call that today was the day we all feared, waiting unpatiently at home because it was too busy to be visiting you just yet with all the family and friends around. around 4 i could finally go, i was emotionless in the bus, i couldn’t seem to cry.
Finally, standing in the hallway of the hospital, i finally realized after all those years how much i loved you and how much i was going to miss you. I couldn’t imagine how life would be if you weren’t here, and it’s still hard knowing you won’t come back. When i walked in, it was the first time i let loose and cried, and i still do.
Never imagined you would have such an influence and keep continuing to do so. You were the first who saw through without using words, you were a mom at the time i needed it the most. I’m thankfull for having met you and the family, You were the strenght when you needed it yourself, you were definitly one of a kind. May you have find your peace, forever in our hearts :)
09-03-‘07 - 09-03-‘09.
Hermano, i’m there with you and your family in heart and mind, may you have strenght on this day.
J-pop queen Ayumi Hamasaki steps into a new era of marketing, offering a limited USB mass storage version of her new album NEXT LEVEL. Hamasaki has always been up to date, setting the latest trends and offering cutting edge releases so it is no surprise she has decided to take this bold step.
CD sales are in a steep decline, so steep that the rising digital sales are not enough to make up for the loss. Many Japanese artists have suffered a decline in overall sales, Hamasaki included. NEXT LEVEL’s USB’s mix of physical presence and digital versatility however, may be a turning point into the market. Could you imagine, having a specially designed flash drive for each album you own?
The flash drive itself will have a 2GB capacity and is shaped into the likeness of Ayu’s 10th anniversary logo. The album will use 800MB of space, containing thirteen tracks, 6 music videos and a digital lyric booklet, so the rest of the space is free to the buyer. The case will be yellow, part of NEXT LEVEL’s promotion and each version of the album will be a different color. Packaging will resemble a normal CD case, making it easier to display in retail stores.
“As the way we listen to music changes from day to day, I looked at things from the listener’s perspective and decided to sell it this way.” -Hamasaki Ayumi