I’ve been sickish for the past 3 days, well actually for the past 2 weeks but it really got to me the last 3 days. But now everything is getting better, i guess when i get sick i really really get sick :P and now my neck muscle is strained >_< so my neck hurts constantly, well not as much as two years ago, but yeah i just have to sit it out *sighs* it’s always my neck, wich is crappy, because whenever my neck hurts it goes to my head, and then to my stomach so i’ll get sick and puke, just like yesterday…I puke too much, or maybe i’m used to puking whenever i have a headache? i get headaches too much, but it’s probably just stress.
*sighs* it’s annoying, my mom is getting sick of us because me, my dad and sis are all sick :P poor thing, she’s like a nurse with a high stress level.
Hopefully the people at work won’t fire me because of my sick days >_< i need the money, but yeah who doesn’t?
I was hoping to feel better in the new year, hasn’t really changed much…well atleast i’m not feeling depressed or negative all the time, only things could have worked out into so much more, well it always can, time will tell.
Most of the time, i’m staying positive, sometimes a negative remark just to mock or vent it out, but other than that, i’m trying to stay positive, giddy, smiley and all that, it feels better that way, tho i can’t hide it when i’m sad or angry, and i won’t because it takes so much energy to fake it, so ofcourse, everything that i’m feeling i’m just putting it on display because i dont need another headache just for faking the happiness.
Anyway my voice is more silent than normal and it sounds like crap, still i’m singing along to this song by Tiziano Ferro, it’s definitly soothing and it feels nostalgic in a good way :)
Where there is cheese there are rats, Where ever there are rats there are cats, Where ever there are cats there are dogs, If you got the dogs you got bitches, bitches always out to put their paws on your riches, If you got riches, you got glitches, If you got glitches in your life computer turn it off and then reboot it, now you back on, Can’t just put the cap on the old bottle once you pop it that’ll spoil it, gone and drink it and enjoy it. Mama I’m a millionaire.
Heard this song on ‘The Hills’ and it sounded quite nice, totally girlie but yeah.
I think im getting hooked to that show :P i finally know why Lauren and Heidi were fighting, and i’m team Lauren, she’s kinda cute too, for a blonde. She’s really pretty, love the hair :P. The drama on the show is just amuzing, cuz its pointless drama, haha damn im such a nerd -_-
Normally, I don’t do or keep to my new years resolution. But this year i thought of a good resolution.
So as it’s already 2009 (damn i can still remember christmas 2007) i thought THIS should be the year to be more motivated and dedicated in the things that i do.
I’ve dedicated alot of myself in a previous relationship, and it felt good to give and be more open, i guess the moral of that was to go into that with all you have, which payed off in a way, well it did for my character and the other person. I’ve learned alot from that relationship, and most it were good things, so i want to keep that vibe because it has changed me for the better…anyway.
This year i want to be more motivated, taking things more seriously, and think more of my own future instead of worrying about other things. Still i’m keeping the positive attitude that i had in 2008, because i actually quite like it. It doesn’t mean i dont have my dark moments now again, i have them quite alot >_< but it feels different, it doesn’t feel so suicidal as it did before haha.
SO! hopefully i can make things happen more this way, because i’m already 22, and i need to start thinking serious about what i will do or what i will be 5 years from now. Hard task, but somebody’s gotta do it.
You know, you can’t predict things or have things the way you want to however you can atleast try to do them, or climb your way up, closer to your dreams, and hopefully i will succeed in that, even if it’s in small steps.
I’m gonna be more motivated, and dedicated in 2009 :) because ‘stop drinking' just won't do :P